Time for bed. Today has been a good day. With the newest of ACE wearing off, I was able to better understand what a normal day is going to be like with it. The bottle arrived today. I'm glad. I can give the samples I have left to someone else to try.
It is really nice to have energy. Being anemic all my life, that is one thing I didn't realize I lacked in comparison to others. Iron supplements make me break out. I read online that this is because I have plenty of iron. The problem seems to be in getting the iron into my bloodstream. This is what one or two types of Vitamin B is for. When I stopped being a vegetarian, I had more energy than I normally had had. After looking over the information on the back of the package, I can see how ACE provides more energy. It has 400% more than your daily need of Vitamin B6.
What is more, I could replicate (star trek term) this same pill myself. It would cost more, but with cocoa beans and green tea I would have almost all I needed to have the same desired affect. I rather save myself the hassle.
I learned today that I could be tired, could feel cravings, and could be negative if I chose to focus on that and chose to be that. If I didn't think about them and chose to be happy then it wasn't a problem. I have the freedom to choose instead of feeling like I am forced into a set lifestyle.
I also had a revelation. When I usually go to the cafe for meals, I feel like it is work or a chore. It is exhausting to eat even a 4th of the rice I take and I take less than everyone else because it just looks unappetising. I often don't eat half my food and am worn out afterwards. Usually within minutes of leaving the cafe, I am searching my apartment for something that tastes sweeter or familiar (cookies or grilled cheese sandwiches) or going to the school store to buy ice cream. Today I went to the cafe and not only did it look good, but I was in high spirits and didn't feel exhausted contemplating how to go about eating it much less actually eating. I ate more than I normally did and my stomach didn't feel full after two bites. I was able to enjoy my meal and finish all my food. Afterwards I felt positive. The complete opposite of normal meals for me here. I would have liked to have had cookies and ice cream, but didn't feel like I would starve without the extra munching. So I was able to not think of them or desire them.
After supper today, I chilled at my apartment until a friend finished tutoring. Between her tutor sessions, I like to go and hang out. The second tutor session has three girls that she works with. They seem to like me for some reason. They bought me snacks and opened them for me. I felt guilty at first since I wasn't going to snack while taking ACE, but then realized that just this one and just a little wasn't going to kill me. Especially since they were thoughtful and picked out snacks made from corn and rice that are eaten like chips. I couldn't eat one... it was spicy. However I enjoyed some of the rest before saying goodbye. I didn't gorge myself as if I was starving like I would have in the past. I sincerely enjoyed their company more than the food. It was pleasant.
Eating regular meals, enjoying them instead of being tortured by them, and not snacking all the time between them, plus the added water I drink has already started impacting my life. I am hoping to get into a set habit of not snacking. Right now my habit is to snack. I must get out of that habit. I must also set a habit of drinking water regularly. These will go a long ways to improving my life.
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